Apriciate your love one ! !

this happen when i 1st saw u on our 1st met..i remember the time,we weren't talking as much as we do currently..like now..i remember the moment when i can't even put my eyes away from looking at u..that was my 1st time i felt something that i never feel when i'm seeing other gurl..I fall in love at the 1st time u caught my eyes away from anything else..the way u smile..the way u talking to me even for just a second..i still can remember it till now..

i remind myself to not to put so much hopes in having u in my life..to be a very reasonable person,i'm not that prefect as many guys whether u have met or will meet..i knw where to put myself at..i'm very simple as u cn see me now..not a very attractive guys as many gurls dreaming of to have 1..

but...i'm grateful that fate is on my side..from those others guys out there,u chose me to be as a part of your life..u brighten up my life..give me the strength to live my life..but still i feel guilty for not being the best as u wish.day by day..this freaking me out....

in the past,i do afraid that i cannot have u in my life..
in this moment,i'm afraid that i'm gonna loose u at someday for the reason i cannot be the best lover ever for u..

may bad is killing me slowly..i'm afraid of my own self..the black shadow behind me,is like the darkness that will eat me alive..as i do afraid my life will end up at the time u walk away from me..

don't leave me as i can't live even for a second without u by my side..

I LOVE YOU...(N)

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